One Finished and framed

My Mom was a talented artist. Art is what she lived and breathed for. My senior year in high school after The customary going to a studio to have my pictures taken Mom set to capture in a portrait what was to become her gift to me for graduating . It hangs one my wall today and I have never liked the gift . The thing is, and others through the years agree I was very beautiful in my senior pictures. Mom was not going for that she was trying to capture that far a away look in my eye that she often saw when she looked my way. I also own two unfinished portraits Mom started at different times in my young life . The first when I was seven I remember sitting for. I love this portrait of me at seven, even unfinished it did capture that far away look and I did not look ugly. In august I was visiting family and another unfinished Portrait of me surfaced while there. I am delighted to now own it. I do not remember sitting for this one I think she it was to surprise me if it had ever been finished. Mom so captured what I looked like at fourteen. Even though it is unfinished and always will be it will hang on my wall someday . Mom died In July , 1981 she was 51, in her sleep it was not a shock to me. Her favorite topic of conversation the last couple of years was how she was not afraid to die. Mom had a severe heart decease she had surgery where her valve was replaced with a plastic high tech valve . Done a second time a few years later to replace the first high tech (Probably defective) plastic valve.When the conversation would lull during the talks of her death moms heart could be heard it ticked like a clock . I was the only one in our family that would listen to her about her impending thoughts of dying . I am happy today that I was able to do that for her but oh how I suffered then . I pre-grieved my Mothers death. I will not know in this life why mom did not finish 2 of the portraits that she started of me . I can geuss that At fourteen I was a pain in her ass that week.I will be 51 my next birthday . I know I will out live my mom however this has been a hard year for me. I am grateful for two unfinished portrait and one finished and framed.